Ruin Radio 7: Lonely Xmas Edition (12/22/2014)

hey. i made this. ^

i’ve had a number of lonely holidays, whether home alone or otherwise. maybe that goes for you, too. this year i’m spending christmas with family for the first time in a few years and i’m hoping for the best. but even if all goes well, this episode's inspired by lonely parts in me. it's dedicated to anyone who feels too lonely to talk about it.

Ruin Radio 3: Journey Through a Body (11/24/2014)

this third episode underwent a lot of changes while i was pulling it together. it started as a kind of "dungeon" mix (that's a concept i'd revisit the following week). however, i realized a lot of songs i wanted to include focused on physical bodies -- their functions, boundaries, and statuses within medicine and other systems. physical desire also comes up in a way that felt relevant. so i cribbed the title from throbbing gristle's last studio album and fashioned this as an installment in which the listener moves through a body while they listen. it may not be a linear path from outside to in, but i felt a change here from experiencing explicitly physical manifestations of bodies to something more metaphysical and existential. there's a darkness lurking throughout this mix, and this week's show moves into some noisier territory. i think there's also a dash of real beauty here and there. simultaneously, maybe.